Love You <3

Wed, 05 Jan 2005 05:47:18 GMT

Sry everyone, i have a new journal. This one is fucked up.
add me lacey_nicole:)

Tue, 04 Jan 2005 03:42:03 GMT

Well everyone. I'm back:D I missed u all <33

I had an awesome time! First time on an airplane ( To damn bad it didn't crash huh?? )Well, i had a great time.

The day that i got there, we ordered pizza & watched Old School. The second day, we went christmas shopping. Dude, all the mall's out there are so fucking huge compared to macomb, it's unbelievable. lol well yeah then the next day. Well, they do something different then everyone else, they open up their presents on xmas eve. So i opened them:D I got a whole buncha stuff, i got jewelry, expensive NOT CHEAP! i got a jewlry box, clothes money. God, i loved itt <333 Then the next day, we ate, & seen a movie, we seen fat albert, it was kinda stupid, i didn't like it all that much. then the next day i can't even remember what we did, we just played game's. It was fun being there <33 & the next day me & my sister got our hair done, my hair has 3 different color's in it. It's REALLY pretty. & i lost </b>25</b> pound's:D i'm happy. Then the last few day's i was there, we went to church & the mall of america. HOLY SHIT! That mall is soo fuckin huge. Then the next day's we sat at home as a family, i loved it. I'm going out there for half of the summer. I dunno though:-/

Some people are really mean. I mean, if you don't like me, why do u waste ur time writing about me in your journal? If your trying to hurt me, or make me sad. It's working.. It's true, thank u for all of that. I already think all that about myself, yes i am ugly, fat.i know i know, so could u just please stop saying shit about me?! It's really fucking stupid. please.. I don't need this shit rite now, everyone get's the point, i'm fat & ugly & ok, yeah i guess i weigh 7695698537 pound's. Whatever it is i did to u.. I don't know, but it's bullshit that u have to say shit about me, VERY stupid.

Well, i missed u all, i hope u all had a great christmas.
I sure did. I think i want to move out there, to get away
from all this shit & rumors about me. I'm so fucking
sick of it, it's maken me sad & maken me think less &
less of my self. thank u

i love u ronnie. <3

comment if ud like to

Yup

Tue, 21 Dec 2004 21:05:43 GMT

Guess ill update one more time b4 i leave. Well. I'm waken up around 9 & 10, Then we are leaving to go to the airport around 11 & then waiting there eatting & i have to be there at 1. & I'm leaving on the plane around 3. OH YEAH! Here's something funnie. Joey said the day that i leave he's happy & he hope's my plane crashe's ANDDD! He said the day that i come back, he don't want me to, he said ONLY if i come back in a casscat. WTF?! R u fucking outta your mind. I never knew you could accutly hate someone to the point u want them to die. Thx joe:D i REALLY needed that! What a fucking dick.

Well im gunna go. That's all.
Brandi i love u & i'm going to miss u:*
Brittney, i'm goin to miss u 2 babe<333
IM GOING TO MISS EVERYONE!!:'[ & i hope
you all have a wonderful great awesome
christmass!!:D cept for a few people!! haha

If u want call me 8999670.
Mite get a new phone today though lol<33;]

i love u ronnie. Im sry i can't be here for xmas.
one year & 4 month's babyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy:D!<3 MUAH!!!

<3me

The last time i'm updating till i get back ;P

Wed, 15 Dec 2004 00:55:16 GMT

This is probably gunna be aLONG update. Cuz im not updating anymore till i get back from minnesota;P, well to start off:

Sum people get on my fucking nerve's think their cool talken shit about people in their journal's. It's fucking immature. I can't STAND sum people. People better stop talking shit before someone get's hurt & i'm not sayin IM going to hurt them, but someone will.

ANYWAY'S _____
Today me & my mom got into it, she's so fucking stupid. I CANT STAND HER!!!!!! she fucking throws a cow cuz i told her to hold on one minute before i did the dishwasher. Man. I SWEAR, when i go to minnesota i don't EVER want to come back. I told her that too, she was like be my guest i don't care. But, i'm really not going to, because i think about ALL of my friend's & ronnie. & I don't want to leave them behind. Anway's i only have like 3 more month's till i'm moving out :D I CANT WAIT!!!!!!!

Everything between me & ronnie is coming back to normal, i love him so much & the thought of being w/out him seriously breaks my heart into piece's. And for all the people that say shit, trying to break us up. I HOPE YOU ALL FUCKING DIE & GO TO HELL!!!!! Sry. Had to get that out. Yeah anway's ronnie's dad called him today, he hasn't talked to his dad for month's, i'm happy for him, cuz i knew how much it hurt him to know his dad wasn't there... i've been there.

This is how thing's are going <333

F R I EN D ' S
I love all of my friend's, you all have done so much for me. I don't know what half of me would do without you there for me. Thank you all so much for everything. If i don't show you how much i care, i'm really sorrie, but i DO care. You're all wonderful. Me & Brandi are still talking more & getting closer, i honestly can tell her anything, i'm glad =) Alison, were so-so. Were talkin alittle more, but like i said, i miss EVERYTHING <333 angela. I'm glad were talkin more & hanging out more. It's just sad how you've changed sooo much :-/ Sam, i really really miss you, i hope we hangout this weekend <33 I LOVE U!!!! Brittney. honstly i never ever thought we'd get soo close. I never ever even thought we'd be friend's, but i'm tellin u i'm glad that we are & UR BEAUTIFUL!!!<333 cheylene. We don't talk as much:-/ I really wish we did, but i'm glad that we get to leave 2nd hr everyday together ;) lol Love u <33 nicci. We don't really talk as much. & it seem's like you don't really have time for anyone else but UR boyfriend. But it's okay that's how i used to be i'll admit. But i wish we could hangout sumtime & i'm happy you found someone your really happy with:D I really am <33 There are ALOT of other people, but this is already gunna be long. So i'm sry if i didn't mention your name, i really am. And i do love u all honsetly truly from the bottem of my heart♥ *muah*
S C H OO L
it's wonderful8) I'm doing good in all of my classe's understanding ALOT more, cuz i accutly pay attention.( the other day, my mom was like lacey get your report card aunt gina dosen't believe me that you only got one d and all the other's b's & c's. So i got it showed her, she was SO happy for me, she was cryin tear's of joy<33 it made me really happy. She said she NEVER expected that from me lol. Cuz my mom and everyone dropped out b4 highschool, so i'm happy for me:D )<33
F A MI LY
eh. It's ok. i just can't STAND my mother! I don't know what it is, but she must just LOVE to torture mee!! My sister dawn, i love her i'm so happy i get to ride in the plane with her when we go, cuz i won't be alone & i'll have someone to hold onto when i get scared <33 Becky. She's annoying ;P but gotta love her <3 lol. My sister justice, i miss her, haven't seen her in a WHILE. Grandpa, we've been spendin more time together, cuz i'm leavin in about a week. i love him, he's the greatest <33 My dad is so sweet, he call's me everyday wondering if i'm ok <3 that's about all.
R O NN I E
At first, for a while me & ronnie weren't doing so wee :-/ as you all know from my friend's only entry. But, rite now were working thing's out <33 Just the thought of him not being in my life rips me apart. He's made me who i am today ( i know that sounded corny ) But it's true <3 i love u baby with all i've got♥ I seriosuly coulen't imagine live without you rite now. You will alway's have a Piece of my heart <33 LIke i said when i do think about doing it, i think about everything. I think of all the memorie's all the beautiful talk's we've had. & i just can't do it. I coulden't see my self without you. & i don't do it jus cuz i know i'm going to break ur heart, but for also what i just said. I want to spend my life with you <33 i love u so much, it's unexplaniable. ♥<3 *8.25.03* <3♥

yup. That's about if for friend's, school, family & ronnie for now <33

I'm still really nervous about the plane ride. i know i'm obsessing over it. But i dunno i've never really been on a plane b4:-/ I'm scared im gunna die:-( IDK. But i just pray that i make it safe & sound <33 I'm really excited to see everyone there, i havne't seen them in like.. 10 year's. woah. & it's gunna be THE BEST CHRISTMAS OF ALL <33 but there's going to be one thing missing </3>ronnie</b> I'm sry babie, that i don't get to spend this xmas with you. I'll make it up to you;) I PROMISE :*
CHRISTMAS ='s A YEAR & 4 MONTH'S I LOVE U. I reall am sry:-/

Oh & If you don't like what i have to say. PLEASE DO NOT waste your time writing in this, cuz i don't give a fuck about what u have to say, i DONT want to hear it. Your just a little immature;P

well i'm leaving in 8 day's now.
Pray for me, that i'll be ok <33

I hope for christmas. All of you have a great one:D
& if you want to call me when i'm out there 8999670, but i dont know if it'll work when i'm 18 hr's away. wew! 18 hrs away from friend's, family & ronnie. I'm going to go CRAZY!! I know it:-/

My newyears resolution -
To Loose As Much Weight As I Can & To Become Pretty:-/ ( That's going to be a hard one )</3>COMMENT DAMIT!</b>

love u all <33
love u ronnie baby:*

Love U <33

Wed, 08 Dec 2004 23:50:36 GMT

Well. Today was a fun day:] Half day & i got to see ronnie <33 I seriously missed him x's 53454645747 !!!!! It was very fun ;] haha. If you know what i mean:) But it sucks cuz he's STILL not coming back to school till monday. Cuz he don't have it, but he can get it again really easily. It's fucking stupid i don't know. & I had to leave early,cuz his stepdad don't want him seeing me till he's offically going back to school & stuff. I'm gunna see him sumtime this weekend though <33 2 week's from today, i am leaving for minnesota. I'm scared shitless . I'm going to take SO MANY sleeping pill's . juss incase sumpin bad happen's to me. I'm scared :x O well. I have a feeling it's going to be greatt <33 I'm going christmas shopping this weekend maybe . Leave a comment telling me what you want <33 well i'm going to go .

love u ronnie <33

i love u

Mon, 06 Dec 2004 04:57:12 GMT

Friday. I stayed home from school & that's none of you're buziness why. so yeah anyway's, i didn't really do nething. Just sat around thena round 7 me & my sister decided to go up to the mall to get pizza. & we ran into SAM!! God, i love u kid. I want to hangout <33 Then the rest of the nite.. Just worried.
Saturday. Ronnie came home=) Well. I didn't do anything like the WHOLE day! Then my grandpa called & said he was going to get angela. That really pissed me off, cuz it seems like the ONLY time she come's out to our house, is if grandpa get's her cuz he's the one with all the "money" well talk to her, then she'll dissapear for a month. fuck it. I can't stand her. Well we went to the movie's seen the grudge. Movie was freeky AS HELL! I jumped like 97459345 times;P lol then went to 7 eleven then went to grandpas & fell asleep.
Sunday today. Nothing really pretty boring day:( heh.

well. I miss ronnie, he's not coming to school till tuesday er thursday. Dunno yet. I can't see him till one of those day's either. I'm really sad cuz of that </3 I miss u ronnie & i'm really happy your ok <3 Sry for being so mean to you today btw:*:* well im gunna go to bed. i'm tired. comment?

Happy <33

Sat, 04 Dec 2004 18:00:05 GMT

Ronnie come's home today <3
i love him & missed him dearly <3

But i can't see him till fucking thrusday. Man i am so pissed!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! :'( i miss him soo much. god.damn.this.fucking.sucks:[ OMG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Im gunna go fucking crazy.

good-bye:'[

Starting over neww;P

Fri, 03 Dec 2004 19:01:11 GMT

well. If you haven't noticed i've erased all of my other entry's, im starting over new & freshhh;) IDK why. But, i waas bored & decided too:)

I'm not shure how ronnie is, last time i talked to him about like an half an hr ago, he hasn't had any sleep & STILL feel's sick. A little later, my grandpa is taken me to see him. OH YEAH don't worrie, everyone that i had added, is STILL added:);):* yeah. lol.
F R I E N D S
Friend's are great:) I love them all. Brittney s. I SIMPLY love u, you are great,beautiful, your wonderful all in all<3 i love u so much thank you for everything. Brandi, your wonderful thank you for everything too. I'm lucky to get to have such great friend's<3 Ashley k i love u:) Sam vitale I LOVE U & miss u. When are we going to hangout?? soon hopefully:* Nicci i love u good luck with brett[sp?] u guys are great together & don't listen to what other people say, their just jealous cuz you have something beautiful & their just jealous of that. love uuu<3 Me & alison barly talk, maybe it's for the best IDK. Lotsa things have changed.. Even though i didn't want em to they did:-/ oh well. I love u all. Mel,Alyssa,Lauren,Corena,Chucky,EVERYONE!! Sry if i forgot u, i don't feel like typing all of u in<3:* love u all<33
F A M I L Y
I never have anything good to say about family till now. Me & mom talked last nite, she knows me & ronnie have sex now & she didn't even get pissed about it. I was really accutly shocked. Me & her went out to eat today @ coney island<3 It was greatt:) Then we went shopping & stuff. For some reason now, i feel more open & comfertable around her. I miss my dad, i honestly can't wait to see him & give him a BIG hug! & everyone else i'm going to see. My cuzions. Oh god, it's going to be awesome!<3 i swearr:* My sister dawn. i love her to death, she has been here with me since ronnie has been in the hospital, she's been here for me as much as possiable. Thank u so much i love u:* everyone else is great:) TONITE I want to see my grandpa, i want to stay the nite over there. Catch up on our little convo's i miss him so much. i love u grandpa<3
S C H OO L
School's good. I like it accutly:] I do good have great people as friend's. Just sum people in my classes are immature, it's like, i like my classes BUT NOT THE PEOPLE IN THEM their all soo immature, but that's just how "little boys aree" haha:D Yup;P
R O NN I E
Me & ronnie are beautiful i love him soo much. Seriously more then life it's self. He has done so much for me & done alot of changing too me. i don't know how i could live without him. i love u soo much beautiful. I wish rite now, i could take your pain away, & be the one with the pain. I will be praying & praying for u. I just want u i want to hold u, kiss u, hug u. I want to tell u everything is going to be alrite. your my everything & i just don't know what i would do without u here i love u soo much! u don't even know<33 Thank u for everything. <3 Ur a blessing my life truly<3

In a few i'm going to visit ronnie♥ I'm really excited. But i can't kiss him er nething:[ it's gunna be pretty sad. At least i get to see his BEAUTIFUL face:)<3 That's all that matter's:*

i love u all so much. Thank u all of u for being here for me through all of this. I want u all to do me a favor. Pray for ronnie tonite. Let him know everything is going to be alrite & that you all care for him im serious. do it for me<3 thank you:)

well im going to go. There's nothing else to say.

i miss u ronnie:'[